Labor story PART TWO!

The nurse came in and checked to see how I was doing, I was already beyond exhausted at this point and I knew if I was this tired already I am in for a long run... she told me she could give me some medication to help me get some sleep... I really didn't want to get medication 2 hours in, I knew i could handle it but I was just so over tired i needed too. I looked at her completely upset and thought i was already failing at this. i knew i had no choice or i would have a harder time later when things picked up. She came back and gave me gravol and morphine. I had read about this combination and the side effects of it. It hit me within 5mins of her giving me it, the craziest feeling. I felt so drugged up and didn't know what was going on but was alert and it made me even MORE tired than i already was. Although it drugged me up so much it did help me be able to get some sleep and be able to have more strength for the long run. I was getting worried about the morphine affecting little girl thought. I heard it can cause their heart rate to drop or even put them to sleep and not come down the birth canal. When it started to wear off I was so worried I made a huge mistake and that something would happen and would affect her, even though I had to be hooked up to machines to montior her for that reason. The nurse came back in and told me it was time to get checked again, they seem to try and check you every 3 hours. I was not looking forward to this outrages pain again.

The nurse came in and checked to see how I was doing, I was already beyond exhusted at this point and I knew if I was this tired already I am in for a long run... she told me she could give me some medication to help me get some sleep... I really didn't want to get medication 2 hours in, I knew i could handle it but I was just so over tired i needed too. I looked at her completely upset and thought i was already failing at this. i knew i had no choice or i would have a harder time later when things picked up. She came back and gave me gravol and morphine. I had read about this combination and the side effects of it. It hit me within 5mins of her giving me it, the craziest feeling. I felt so drugged up and didn't know what was going on but was alert and it made me even MORE tired than i already was. Although it drugged me up so much it did help me be able to get some sleep and be able to have more strength for the long run. I was getting worried about the morphine affecting little girl thought. I heard it can cause their heart rate to drop or even put them to sleep and not come down the birth canal. When it started to wear off I was so worried I made a huge mistake and that something would happen and would affect her, even though I had to be hooked up to machines to montior her for that reason. The nurse came back in and told me it was time to get checked again, they seem to try and check you every 3 hours. I was not looking forward to this outrages pain again.


She checked me and we were only sitting at 4cm. They thought with some sleep I would have progressed more. Sure enough.. I did not. The decided that breaking my water should help seed up the process. By now we were nearly 6hours in. I was so excited for them to break my water, I kept saying I wanted to know what it felt like since everyone explains it differently. It was gross. The grossest feeling you could possibly think of. Imagine lying in the bed while everyone is looking at you and you let out the biggest warmest and GOOIEST pee ever. Gross right? Well I got what I wanted. Not long after them breaking my water, thinks speed up and started moving quickly. All I can remember is standing up leaning over the table they had in the room and balling my eyes out. Crying out for help, telling myself I couldn't do this anymore and I needed something to help. I was in the most pain and my body couldn't handle it. I kept looking at josh bagging for help. The nurses wouldn't let me get an epidural for awhile, the morphine had affected little girl. Her heart rate wouldn't change so they were worried about having to do a c- section so they wanted to hold off on the epidural for nearly two hours to see if her heart rate would change. THANKFULLY after those two long hours it changed! This mama could finally get some pain relief.


The doctor came in and gave me my epidural and honestly wasn't as bad as I was expecting.The worst part was trying to stay still in order for him to hit the right spot. NOT EASY when you are having full blown contractions. 20mins go by the epidural kicked in and holy moly your whole lower body feels so heavy! I had to get the doctors to help me turn over constantly, if you don't one side gets heavier than the other and you start to panic. At least I did. Finally I got some sleep and woke up and we were at 10cm! It was pushing time! WOO I was so excited. Until I got the most outrageous pressure in my tailbone that was her making her way down. No one warned me about that, although my epidural was wearing off but still had some that KILLED ME. We were 1 hour into pushing and first time moms normally push for 2 hours at the min.. Well not me. I went 3 hours! I was so exhausted I was using all my energy and no progress. I felt like such a failure. Thinking common Shae its been 3 hours some people can do this in 10mins LETS GO! But no. The doctor insisted we used the vacuum to help, I was getting to tired and she would go into destress soon is she didn't come out. The doctor came in along with 5 other doctors and they told me lets have this baby. I was so scared about the extra help, i felt this whole labour process did not go the way I wanted too. But I had to get her out. He said you have to give it your all and push and we did. I remember feeling her head pop out and uh well thats not a pleasant feeling. Finally he said one more Shae lets do this. We pushed one more time and I can remember yelling '' I CANT DO THIS THE PRESSURE'' and pop out her shoulders came and next thing I knew she was cuddled up on my chest.



Although my labour didn't go the way I thought I would , thats why I also didn't make a birth plan. Labour is going to go the way it wants to we cant control how it goes. If we can all of us would have easy labours. Sadly doesn't work like that. In the end she is here, happy and healthy. I would do it all over again, despite the pain and the way it went. Just not for awhile.... a very long time.


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